DeJuan Gabriel Mendez

On April 24 at 9:02am our son and second child was born. DeJuan Gabriel Mendez has come into our lives at a both very rough and special time in our lives. He is very healthy boy weighing in at 8 lbs 11 oz. He is 19 3/4 in long and has a head that is 14 in wide. He has quite an appetite and loves to sleep all day and stay up all night. We are so very thankful to have him here. But we miss our daughter very much. It is good to have a baby in the house again. And now I would love intoroduce to everyone, our son, DeJuan Gabriel Mendez.

An update on DeJuan Gabriel

On a day such as today I am trying to remain positive. Its hard and I miss my baby girl so much. But I have to remember our son DeJuan. As most of you know our second child is due any day now. DJ, as we like to refer to him, is technically due on Saturday, April 21.

We owe you an update on our son. Again DJ is due on Saturday. Everything appears to be "normal" with him, no signs of any issues or problems. We are very thankful for that, but it also shines a light about how different and miraculous our pregnancy with Z was. We have been getting things ready for him. Buying the neccessary items that our son needs, getting his little area in our bedroom ready, getting ready to have a little baby on our home again.

We really cant wait till he gets here. We are just so excited. We were hoping that he was going to come on Easter weekend. Of course that did not happen. We were expecting this last weekend for his arrival. Again a no show. Now we are prepping for Saturday. If he does not come by then, then he will be here by Tuesday for sure. Chris has a scheduled c-section for 8:30am that morning.

So as we wait for his arrival and are deeply excited for it, we also cant help but be sad because his big sister will not be here physically. We do know that she will be here in spirit, as she has thoughout this this whole pregnancy watching over her little brother. Thanks for watching over little brother Zayana Grace. We know you will be an amazing big sister. And as for you DeJuan Gabriel, we cant wait to finally meet you. Daddy cant wait to hold you and give you kisses and tell you all about your big sister. I love you Z and DJ! I love my children!!

Missing you baby girl

My dearest Munchers,

The marker I have been dreading has finally come. We have come to the one year reminder that you are not here with your mommy and I. I really did not know what to expect. I knew I was going to be sad. I knew I was going to cry. I knew I was going to hold your mommy extra close tonight. I knew I was going to be missing you.

Its hard to believe that a year ago today I had to say goodbye to you. A year ago I held you close and danced the one and only dance I would ever have with you. And I kissed your little forehead for the last time. I miss kissing your little forehead.

I was looking foreward to conquring the world with you. When you died a year ago, that dream shattered along with my heart. Its been hard to continue forward, but daddy has tried his hardest to be like you. To push forward in the face adversity, just like my little Munchers.

Daddy miss you so much. Daddy wish you were still here. Daddy will always love you. Daddy hurts.

I love you Zayana Grace Mendez. I miss you!

Always and forever,

Your loving daddy

Missing Munchers...

A year ago today, we were coming to grips with the fact that our worst fear was becoming a reality- our little miracle baby would soon be ushered into the arms of Jesus. We spent the day surrounded by friends and family who came to say their good-byes and were once again in awe of the impact our amazing daughter had on all who knew her. Ernesto and I finally got to hold her close to our chests and... Ernesto had a father-daughter dance with his little Munchers. I sang our special songs to our Warrior Princess one last time. A little after midnight on the 19th, our precious little girl's mighty heart took it's last beat. You forever changed us, baby girl, and not a second goes by that you are not on our minds and in our hearts. We love you and miss you, Zayana Grace Mendez.